I was talking my friend and advisor the other day, and I was just lit up talking about this idea of enrolling in a energy/light healing course, as well as a yoga teacher training. He said he just hadn’t heard me like that in a while, and reminded me of the times since he’s known me where I have complained of a lack of inspiration or “vital zest” for life. He told me “look man, this is god talking to you. You’ve got to do the stuff you love.”
So here it is. I’m adding a course on healing light therapy to my Ayurvedic studies, and I’ve applied to some yoga teacher training programs that would complement my current schedule.
Taking leaps. It’s a wild affair — but how else is my life going to be lived? Walking the path, I’m at a time right now where I just have to do what is right by my heart and conscience. I’ve got a great system of support and love in my life. It helps me find my own courage.
The other thing that came up in talking to this friend and advisor, was me mentioning my concern: “You know, how am I going to take this class about healing light therapy. It’s so far out. Look at the course descriptions! They’re talking about connecting with angels and subtle energies. How am I supposed to do this when I’m still working on not getting pissed when the dishes aren’t done to my liking??”
I was gently encouraged to just keep going — to do the things that are natural and arise of out of the natural love. You can only try to tweak the faults and frailties of my humanness so much — dwelling in the muck and trying to fix stuff. I’ve even heard some scientific studies about psychology, where it is just so much easier to improve on something you’re good at than fix something you’re not. It’s just natural to love the things you love and put your energies into there.
And if anything about my life has shown me anything in the last 5 years, it’s that miracles are real — they happen all the time — and that you’ve got to show up for Love, and put in the effort to connect —- but that through the Source, problems can simply dissolve. You don’t have to go around trying to fix everything. It’s OK to inventory, and see what’s wrong with me in the moment, or what aspects are holding me back, or patterns I’m engaged in. But the real point in doing that stuff is SO THAT YOU CAN CONNECT TO THE SOURCE. It’s about the solution, and moving toward that.
Not sure if this is making sense or if it’s just become a midnight ramble — but there it is.
I can’t believe I’m going to medical school AND doing all this stuff! I honestly never thought these things were possible, or even a path that I would desire. I can’t stress enough how much fear, anxiety and uncertainty has been a part of this path for me — and how much at the same time, love, stability, courage and faith have been there as well. It is all happening, all the time.